Pants

everyday is getting worse.
the more i think about certain things, upsets me.
and as the days go by and i'm still with no use of transportation,
it gets harder.
i took having my car around for granted.
it wasnt a great car. the dashboard lights didnt work at night, the brakes were terrible, it would shake horrendously after about 50 mph, things didn't work.
but i always loved it, just never saw myself without it.
now i am, and it's so hard.
to top it off, it has to rain and look extremely gloomy today, it rained yesterday too.
what a joyous view. i ran this morning, and it started raining.
i quickly tucked my ipod into my semi-short cotton polka dot shorts. just so it wouldn't get soaked, and i headed back to 'home'.
i had plans to go to the movies today, but couldnt because my ride wasn't able to come.
then desiree and madi were going at 7, but...
i stayed here.
ha.
the movie wasnt even playing anyways.
my father doesnt seem to care either. he keeps putting off things i need to do and get done.
i've already started school, so i'm taking care as many things for myself as i can.
i need a car to get a job.
and to start having a life again.
leave at night, and go hang out with my friends.
which i do still, once in a while.
this weekend someone is coming down from college for labor day weekend, i think.
that's really one of the only things that keeps my spirits up right now, it will be a really great weekend.
i've been really getting interested in the war between the jews and the natzis, i guess world war II.
i've been watching movies on them today, like the concentration camps and stuff.
i finished a really great movie called "The boy in the striped pajamas"
it was really interesting, and i read the book before a while ago, the movie came out in 2008.
it's a really sad ending.
i also watched a movie, or mini-series called "holocaust" with a young meryl streep, in 1978.
i havent finished that one yet however.
it's very long.
well, i figured i had more to blog about.
the truth is, i do. but if i keep blogging about it, i will never stop. so that's that. i'm getting over it.

ciao.