i'd bury my dreams underground.
as did i.
we drink to die.

you were always half crazy, now look at you baby. make about as much sense as a nursery rhyme.

i know i said i wasn't going to blog for a while, but i couldn't help myself.
i used to despise having to come to beaufort, but it's been one of the best weekends in a long time.
not THE best of course, but one of them : )
there is nothing better than seeing people you haven't seen in a long time and seeing how everyone has grown. them seeing how i have grown myself, all of us in many different ways.
kristen, taylor, ansley, sasha, and a minor few other people i have spent most of my weekend with.
i forgot how much fun these guys are! we are all so silly around each other. once again, taylor and i make ridiculous videos.
we went from this video:


to this one:


hahaha! we're nuts. i look insanely nerdy, but that was the point. i love her to pieces.
we attempted to go dancing but that was a fail, the whole thing was canceled. all of us girls were dressed up so we went to outback instead and then night roaming downtown to get frozen coffee and meet up with friends.
ha, at outback i saw will holland, which was so awkward. i remember the last time i saw him...
ugh. yikes!
he was a tad flirty, and it was really super awkward so we asked if we could sit in a different section.

and kristen, since you read my blogs, i'll just let you know right now the dog show downtown today was SO incredibly adorable.
max was so handsome dressed up as a squirrel.
and i missed you sooo much, i loved seeing you! i can't believe i forgot how crazy we are together. i can't wait til you start coming to hilton head to see me : )
hopefully you will like my friends. i'm sure you will. i love you oh so much.



kbye.

why would you try to spend a majority of one of the conversations we have to make me feel inferior and a little bad about myself because of a Window?

"Oh ladies, pleasant and demure, sallow-cheeked and sure
I can see your undies, and all the boys you drag about."

ciao friends, i'm gonna disappear for a while so i'm probably not gonna blog for a bit..
have a devine weekend.

oh, what do we have here

a survey on my friends, and on other things that i came across on a xanga. why not, i'm pretty much an insomniac anyways to care about the time.

Loudest? bridget tilton.
Funniest? derek wilson.
Prettiest? god, all my friends are hot as fuck.
Most Favors For? uh, probably driving around all my friends around when i did, but now i'm incapable of doing many favors now. it kind of upsets me.
Most Favors For me? desiree probably, she does a lot for me. she's great. catie does a lot too, she's one of the best people to have as a neighbor.
Most Inside Jokes With? i'd have to say desiree duff again, we've been through the most bazaar things.
Most Laughs With: bridget desiree anna taylor and even though i'm not really friends with mariah anymore, i've had so many laughs with her anyways.
People I Hang With Most? definitely desiree anna, catie and bridget. and my guy friends i guess.
Biggest GiggleBox? ...a gigglebox? ha, what the fuck. uh, taylor somers
Stupidest? sorry, van
Best Clothes? bah, i love taylors closet to death. liz really has good style too...(not your liz, desiree haha. even though she does have great style i'm speaking of a different liz.)
Most Atheletic? hilary
Whose Had The Most Boyfriends? um, drew?
Shortest? i'd say me but myself and i aren't that great of friends.
Biggest Drunkie? ....ha. must i pick one?
Biggest Pothead? see above.
Nicest? desiree
Coolest? gage saylor, for sure. :)

For A Million Dollars Would You...

Kill The President? no, kanye would have my ass.
Eat Another Person? ewwwww....no.
Same Gender Sex? probably.
Have A Triple Life? naw
Have Sex With A Black Man/Woman? probably not, haha. depends.
Kill Your Best Friends? now that is just nonsense
Start Over? sometimes i'd like to, it would be great if i could pick a certain time to do so. i have a great point of time in mind...
Go To Any part Of Army? sure
Become A Prostitute? guess i'm already a millionaire
...not
Become A USC Fan? for a million dollars....who would do that?
Become Famous? this is dumb.


Have You Ever...

Cheated On Someone? nope, even when it would never be considered cheating in the first place
Madeout With Someone's Boyfriend? uh.. i'm not really sure how to answer that
RegrettedLife? many times
Wish You Had Someone Else's Life? ha, yeah
Questioned Gods Existence? well yeah, hasn't everyone? even the more christian of people?
Smoked? yeah..
Drank? well golly gee never
Masturbated? hey!
Had Sex? mhm..
Been Happy For Someones Death? i can't say i ever was, no.
Wished Someone Was Dead? ha yeah
Had A Serious Problem? for sure
Been Seriously In Love? does it matter, really?
Been Really Jealous? hmmm, yes. ugh
So Mad Because You Know The Truth And They Don't BELIEVE You? ALL THE TIME, haha why did the survey spaz out when they asked that
Thought The Boy That Was Right For You Was With The Girl That Was Wrong For Him? well yes but no matter who you like you're bound to think who ever they are with is wrong for them, am i right?

Fill In The Word That First Comes To Mind:
I like: you
That so damn: fuck
Your pretty: pants
Your quite: bad at saying "you're"
I really hate: you
Spiders make me: eat them
I think you should: come to me
My name is: melanie mannequin
Hey: hey!
Boo: hey!

What...
Station is your radio set to: itunes
Are you found using more, the computer or tv: computer
Are your plans for the summer: let me tell you when it happens
Do you hear: broken social scene, actually alive in 85 just ended, now radiohead
Does your shirt say: increase the peace, i wear it once in a while to bed cause it makes me feel nude.
Is your favorite flavor gum: mmm the explosive minty kind
Was the weirdest thing your pet dragged in: pants brought me my panties once.
Are your initials: MKP, i hate my name, can't wait to change it
Is the first thing you say in the morning: nothing really, usually just a smile depending on what texts i see

Why...
Did you cry last: it was a sad tuesday
Did you get yelled at last: probably for not taking out that faggot jimbo
Did you get in a fight with your best friend last: i don't know

Who...
Made you cry last: no one intentionally
Hurt you last: eh
Slept over last: desiree
Is your funniest friend: didn't we go over this? derek.
Are your favorite band: couldnt tell ya just one. but i'm sure out of the like 2 or 3 people who read this knows what music i like.

Do you have an ipod? If so what kind? hmph. they all just end up getting stolen, of course.
Are you Hungry? who isn't semi hungry at 2 am?
Last thing you ate? moes at 3:30
If someone popped out of your closet what will you do? i'd probably scream and then just be like, what the fuck? why. hah, that reminds me of the time when catie and kara were making out in the guest room and gage popped out of these little attic things and was just like, ....hey guys! hahaha. random.
What kind of mood are you in? not a great one, to be honest.
What time is it? 2:11, i'll sleep after i post this
Describe your hair right now: i got out of the shower about 2 hours ago, so it's basically dry. it's got its natural wavy lock things going on, and for some reason i can't stop putting my fingers through it.
What is in front of you besides the computer/laptop? aw, my baaaaaaaby
Are you wearing glasses? naw
Do you hate anyone right now? EVERYONE, RAHHHHWWW
Think fast! Name a vegetable! zucchini
Did you name carrot? no.
Do you know a word in a different language that rhymes with orange? yeah, "bano" in spanish
Are you wearing pants, shorts, or skirt or dress? underwear, cunt
Last thing you did before you came online: washed my face
Are you happy? eh
Right now if the person you liked told you they hated you what would you do? i would just say, oh this is just one of those things you do to me




there were more questions, i'm just too tired.
who the hell is reading any of this anyways?
g'night lovers

ah, by the way.
how did i JUST see this video now? this is one of my old friends, ellison. i guess a friend he goes to SCAD wanted him in one of their videos, it's pretty good. i don't really like nine inch nails haha, but ellison is amazing. you should all watch him.

ugh.

hiiiiiiii.
learned how to unicycle, coffee, and gazebo.
what if we wake up from all we've known to be life..

and we are fucking aardvarks.

i know why certain people are weird with me today, it's cause i SUCK big time!
but i will tell you something, a nice fizzy bath will hit the spot.
incense anyone?

-always,
me.


ah, memories

well hello there. ive come to make a confession. just kidding, but i got your attention... didnt i? okay now, tell me this, are things not completely WEIRD lately. i'm not sure what it is, and i cant point it out, and everyone reading this either completely understands or completely thinks i'm insane, which i probably am, but that's not the point. the air just feels different these days.. its like.. something in the wind is making me feel like something is completely wrong, and i cant even point it out. like being alone in a crowd of people, being freezing next to a heater, screaming in a room full of deaf people, standing untouched in the middle of an avalanche, or just falling asleep when your completely awake. don't ask me what im talking about because im not even sure if im trying to explain it right. things just don't feel ... right. like everyones either perfect or completley lost. im still trying to figure out where i stand in that. all i can say is, a jazz record does clear things up for a bit. - love you all yours, ever so truly. mmmmmmm...

you are just like an avalanche, cold as i might have guessed. but at least i'm covered up for now.

well hi,
I don't know why I haven't been blogging as much as I have before, or how much often I even will.
lately, it almost seems pointless to blog about what's going on.
people notice that i write things that only make sense to me, and they question it.
"what did that one thing you write mean?"
"who are you talking about in your last blog?"
then i think, man, my blogs must really be confusing. so what's the point in even writing them? who am i pleasing by writing?
here i complain, yet my fingers still scurry around the keyboard and words are put down.
i watched the sixth sense for the first time ever, today.
this morning actually. aaron talked me into seeing it, every time i would almost get to watching it before today i'd chicken out because people would tell me how scary it is.
the truth is that the movie has been out for so long, even people who have never seen it knows that bruce willis is a ghost the whole time. the 'twist' has been out the day the movie went to theaters, so that little part was ruined for me. I didn't find it as scary as i had it in my head. it was a tad creepy but not really scary to me at all.
but trust me, this morning i would have much rather been doing something else than watching the sixth sense.
even though during this short time you weren't with me much, i still treasured every second.
but i'm guessing it's over. for now. and i don't know or even care if everything before was just talk but i thoroughly enjoyed it all, every word.
i'll be missing so much.

i had the loveliest of walks today. i was wearing weather appropriate clothes and it felt delicious outside.
i talked to bridget for a bit, we are planning a sleepover sometime this week.
then i guess either i'm going to the lakehouse this weekend (which i'm not sure if i really want to go) or bridget and i are going to savannah to look for halloween costumes.
i don't want to dress slutty this year. but i do want to be a cute-sexy thing.
just need to find out what that 'thing' is..
no set halloween plans yet, but i'll hopefully be doing something extremely fun.

i watched where the wild things are this weekend, while i thought it was essentially one of the cutest movies i've seen in a long time, i did have different expectations.
nonetheless, it was lovely.
[i never say lovely...]
i think i am getting a car fairly soon. i've been trying to nag my dad as much as i can by telling him to take me here and there, and picking me up places. i've even pulled the whole, i'm so sad because i can't leave the house card. but ultimately, i really want a job. honestly, i really want one.
i want to be making my own money and not have to ask my dad for allowance anymore, i'd like to do things more independently. step one: get a car, and get there.
besides, i'm tired of making my friends have to come out here and get me. i miss being able to do that for them, and get myself where i need to be.
..and wow, adam brody is severely attractive.
bah, i feel so cliche thinking he is cute now.
ha, i remember in middle school, taylor somers and i worshiped his poster.

i might as well stop blogging while i'm ranting about stupid shit.
g'night friends.


i really like this song : )

the legionnaire's lament

...and it has been a good day

Alabama, Arkansas,
I do love my ma and pa,
not that way that I do love you.
holy, moley, me, oh my,
you're the apple of my eye,
girl I've never loved one like you.
man oh man you're my best friend,
I scream it to the nothingness,
there ain't nothing that I need.
well, hot and heavy, pumpkin pie,
chocolate candy, Jesus Christ,
ain't nothing please me more than you.
ahh home. let me go home.
home is wherever I'm with you.
Ahh home. let me go ho-oh-ome.
home is wherever I'm with you.
la, la, la, la, take me home.
mother, I'm coming home.
I'll follow you into the park,
through the jungle through the dark,
girl I never loved one like you.
moats and boats and waterfalls,
alley-ways and pay phone calls,
I've been everywhere with you.
that's true. laugh until we think we'll die,
left with on a summer night,
never could be sweeter than with you.
& in the streets you run afree,
like it's only you and me,
jeez, you're something to see.
ahh home. let me go home.
home is wherever I'm with you.
ahh home. let me go ho-oh-ome.
home is wherever I'm with you.
la, la, la, la, take me home.

HAHAHA.

people really do change.
this is absolutely horrifying
I was 'rebelling' bahah.

i know all beautiful places are prone to natural disaster, but being swallowed by the earth in manilla beats a slow death in the midwest.

this is gonna be a long week.
i just want to see you.

i dont care what nobody says, no i'm gonna be his lover

i am the luckiest.
good fucking night, tonight.
that is all.










euphoria, euphoria.

wouldn't it be funny if half the people who came to the show tonight paid 28 dollars just to hear silversun pickups play lazy eye?

ha, oh wait...


i'm overly excited for tonight, i've been listening to silversun pickups now for a very very long time, every song is so soothing to me.
cage the elephant, gotta be honest, haven't really been a huge fan all that long but I do enjoy their music as well.

can't wait to see everyone, too!

this rehab ain't working for me no more. i need my fix of you.

I have to be one of the awkward ones.
honestly, today I have run into so many awkward situations, it is unbelievable.
I am trying to look forward to the things coming up, say for instance..
silversun pickups & cage the elephant tomorrow!
this wonderful fellow, scott frank, works with some radio station and works at shoreline or monkey business and all those other local venues when bands come and meets them.
he's going to hook me up & let me go back stage & everything. I am so excited.

I also have this dilemma. November 11th: ATL- Get up kids & Kevin Devine or in Orlando, Minus the Bear is playing.
I have been dying to see MTB live for forever now, I just found out they are playing the same day! I'd probably definitely go but I made such a big deal about this other show and the Get up kids are finally back together again and Kevin Devine melts me like no other.
But bahhhh, Minus the Bear has an album coming out so this is a good way to hear them advertise it.
I don't know what I am going to do yet. Ugh!
Maybe I'll figure it out soon enough, I still need to scope out some people who'd like to join.

I made a 96 on my first psychology exam.
That and astronomy are my most strong subjects. I also am doing very well in music theory.
I'm taking like, 2 math courses which are insane, idk what I am in them. Then AP British literature is just really boring. out of all the english classes I could have taken, I chose that one.
But school is going well, I can't wait to graduate.
Although I do pretty soon, it feels weird, I don't feel old enough to be almost done with highschool.
I remember when my older sisters graduated high school and thinking, wow they are so old.
It's just so odd to me. Seventeen just feels so young.
I'm sleepy though, I must sleep.

hmmph, i don't know what i am supposed to feel or think of you right now. I'm so confused.

this time around, you can be anyone.











found some more wedding pictures! :)

I'm so sick of people.
I do one goddamn thing this weekend that is blown up to be a huge deal.
I went to Charleston. I stayed with a good friend of mine that I have known for forever who attends the school. We stayed out for the night.

Since when does that mean I automatically do immature whore related things?
Erin didn't really know the people we were staying with all that well and she posted a comment saying "I stayed on this guys futon" to someone, I can see how that can seem a little sketchy.
But in all honesty it wasn't at all. I didn't hook up with anyone at all that whole night. Didn't want to and didn't plan on it. So I don't care if "3 out of 5" students at CofC have an STD, simply because I don't care to have any contact with them to get myself accounted with one. I just wanted to have a mini getaway this weekend because I did not feel like being here.
Friday night was a lot of fun, going camping with Bridget & Tony, was amazing. It was really chill, and we just made fools of ourselves. Indian dancing to tribal music on Ipod speakers around the bonfire, making s'mores, going kayaking and being completely silly goons.
It was perfect, three friends just enjoying the outdoors :)

And although everyone made a huge nothing out of Charleston, overall it was a fun time.
Not something I will be doing very often however, it was an experience.

From now on, I will no longer care about the stupid things people inquire. i'll just have myself a good fucking time, and not worry about a thing.

oh, queen of interpretation.





cheers to a phenomenal weekend, ay?
phenfuckingnomenal.