If you let me have my way, I swear I'll tear you apart.

aw, i just came across one of these on facebook and i'm definitely in the survey-filling-out mood.
it's like the age of the myspace. i used to love when people would ask me to post a survey.

What's on your bed?
my bed always has so much random shit on it. like now.... a skirt, victorias secret catalog, towel, an Ipod cord, my phone, a half full water bottle, panties and a bra. it will all be knocked off my bed in, oh, 5 minutes.

You just drank 52 shots, what would you be doing?
I'd get the gold chariot, or float through the ceiling.

Would you ever get a tattoo?
i don't have anything against them, i just dont trust my mind and the decisions it makes. i know i wouldnt be happy with it at some point.

What did you eat for lunch today?
since i've only had the appetite for one meal a day, i guess you can call it lunch. but...mellow mushroom. oh, speaking of, they offered me a job there. thoughts?

Are you satisfied with your life, right now?
i'm young, of course.

Who was a better teacher, your math teacher this year or last year?
:( my computer is my math teacher. and the last math teacher i had was fat and black and hated the world.

Want something you can't have?
just anthony green, what a dreamboat!

Are you currently frustrated with anyone or anything?
i don't know these days.

Are you looking for a boyfriend or girlfriend?
no.

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
sometimes it would be nice to forget, because i forgive too fucking easily.

Do you know anyone who smokes weed?
oh golly no!

Are you talking to someone while doing this?
si!

Have you ever had a really big fight with your best friend?
hasn't everyone?

Think a lot before you fall asleep?
guilty.

Do you like anyone?
i lyke sum1.

Are you a jealous person?
i used to be miles away from being a jealous person.

Do you think age matters in relationships?
like most things, it depends.

Is any part of you sad at all?
mhm

Would you run down the street naked if you earned150$?
um...yea?

Are you drunk?
haha, no.

Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 10 days?
yes

Where will you be 2 hours from now?
either sleeping or remaining awake, theres no telling at this point.

Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
not at all!

Did you have any unread text messages when you woke up today?
yep

Someone tells you, "you have a drug problem", you say?
lil ol me?

What was the first thing you did this morning?
put on some pants

Would you go out in public looking the way you do?
i'd probably get called a prostitute or get raped. especially if its on that road out just outside spanish wells.

Is your hair long enough to put in a ponytail?
it's really long!

Do you get drunk every weekend?
no

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
yes

Did you start 2010 single?
eh

What color was the last towel you used?
purple

Did you enjoy your weekend?
it was highly enjoyable

What does your phone do when it receives a new text?
brand new serenades me, or it vibrates seductively.

Have any stalkers?
lawl..

Do you trip a lot?
yes, i stumble everywhere

If some one paid you $100 would you dance in the middle of times square?
who the fuck wouldn't? i'd dance BECAUSE i was in times square.

On average, how good do you think your life has been so far?
um, so-so. ups and downs. but good. yeah

Who's your last text from?
a lovely friend

And what did it say?
"Look at the moon!"

In the last 6 months can you say you cared about someone?
immensely

Why aren't you dating the last person you kissed?
i love how you automatically know we aren't dating

Your phone is ringing. It's your ex. What do you say?
"Hey!"

Do you like to cuddle?
love love love!

Will you regret your next kiss?
since i can see the future and everything...?

Ever had a guy best friend?
yes

How is your last ex doing?
just fine i'm guessing

Who is the last person you promised something?
I can't think right now

Is anyone that you know celebrating their birthday today?
lets check facebook shall we?
austin willis greene is!

Are you a loud person?
i DEFINITELY can be one.

Honestly, if you could go back three months and change something would you?
na, whats the point

Are you happier now than you were five months ago?
i dont think there's a huge difference.

Are you ticklish?
only in places where i will never reveal

What's the relationship with you and the last person you talked on the phone with?
it was my dad. he was asking me why i wasn't home yet. and now, i'm home.

Was the first person you talked to today male or female?
...female? i think?

Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?
not that i can recall. so no

Is there someone that you believe you will always be attached to?
always is a long time, so, there's no telling

Do you have any piercings?
2

Has anyone ever underestimated your intelligence?
all the time! : ( sad!

Would you ever marry the last person you talked on the phone with?
ew, what the fuck

Do you sleep on your stomach?
at various points during my slumber.

What do you hear?
george lopez and his nasty as fuck voice, just because sex and the city JUST ended.

Where is you mother?
she is in beaufort.

What are you doing this weekend?
leaving you all

Do you like Miley Cyrus?
no

Is the last person you kissed hot or cute?
crazy sexy

How many people do you trust with your life?
i dont know

Known anyone who killed themselves?
yeah.

waste it on

i'm home home home home home.
only for a week however, then off to the Caribbeans.
words can't express how excited i am for this, i've been counting down the days.
i'll meet so many new people (not like i'll stay in contact with anyone ha) and explore so many different places!
i never vacation to far places, it's just too overwhelming.

my sisters house this weekend was loads of fun as well.
except, i feel kind of bad for saying this, but when my mom & my niece paid a surprise visit to us on saturday, i was kind of bummed.
my sister always lets me drink wine with her and talk about things we wouldn't talk about around my mom, or the 5 year old.
and it turned into this g-rated stay instead of what i was planning on.
saturday night we all sat down to watch a movie and natalie and i had a couple great ones picked out when my mother chimed in "no girls, nevaeh can't watch that. how about....where the wild things are!"

oh. my. god.
no.
thankfully, i got us out of watching that one.
to me, where the wild things are is one of those movies where it's great and all when you see it, but not worth really seeing again.
it's weird because everyone was so gung ho on it. even after they saw it.

so, we ended up seeing the fucking blindside.
who fell asleep after 10 minutes?
melanie did.

i woke up to everyone sobbing, i kind of just rolled my eyes at them and turned around to continue sleeping, ha.

then, today my mom had us take stupid pictures through a cell phone. they turned out terrible, the quality sucked and i was wearing this stupid brown shirt/dress thing and it was so early!
but i uploaded a couple of them anyways just because i was smiling without my braces and everything.
i'm slowly starting to learn how to smile, it was so confusing at first. but it's getting easier.

as for outside of the getaway world,
everything is just stupid. really. fucking. stupid. aka, PEOPLE.
i can't wait to go to cofc.
graduation is only soon after everyone elses though, i hate how confusing my school system is!
it sucks, i just want to leave.
i also cant wait to really start studying psychology. and experience living without parents. it will be a fun time.


anyways, whatever, i don't need anyone.
because i'm going to have a kick ass time in one week.
and... i just don't care anymore!

now, i'm going to pay a visit to some pals.

goodbye

La la la.

Ah, the perks of being a....

hilton head citizen.




now off to enjoy this absolutely breathtaking day.

always,
mel

Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry? I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind.

hm, i am sitting in front of my laptop blogging once again.

hello my darlings.
so to catch up-
my braces have at once been removed (although when i go to the dentist soon they are going to shape them up a lot and make them look real nice)
and i've reunited with a couple old friends.
one of which i could have sworn i'd never talk to again, but predictable me does not hold grudges for too long.
especially with people i've been friends with for so long.
however, it will never be like it was before.
this is how i can explain it in a corny analogy-
we've gone down completely different roads yet we are able to meet at various rest stops.

in other words- only time will tell.


today, in the middle of traffic i witnessed a boy stop his car just to pick a flower for his girlfriend.
it's not close to any personal experiences of mine, yet i've regained some faith in humanity.
even through any shitty days i may have, if i saw that again then i'd still be left smiling.

as of now, i've got a couple events i am looking forward to.
this weekend, and leaving the fucking country from april 3rd-10th.
oh, well the end of april i'll be seeing circa survive in atl.
i don't care who believes me, piss off!

i just purchased this for spring and all of the events it holds: click me!

yippee.

there is so much going on right now that i don't understand. i wish that the outcomes of them didn't leave me feeling like shit about myself.
no amount of meaningless compliments from facebook chat makes a helping dent.
even from exboyfriends from 7th grade that won't say a single thing if the intention wasn't to make me smile.

i overlook so much.
but i am a happy girl.


i need a new ringback tone. hm... lets see.
thought of one.

i set it!
goodbye old ringback tone.



well, cheers to the first time blogging in a long time.
i can't ponder my feelings right in my own head,
god forbid a blog.
who knows what i wrote is valid.


sincerely,
me

I hope writing you that peace offering letter wasn't the most stupid thing.
maybe- it was the smartest. maybe things can almost go back to normal.


tune in.

I bid you adieu.

hm, what happened to blogging. it was a 2 month fad.
well, for a majority of people, that is. i've been using this stupid thing for about two years.
a lot of blogs unread of course, and I have no problem with it.

recently the fads are (still) twitter, and now the contagious formspring, spreading like small pox. even though that's non-existent now. i think.
anyways, i have a formspring. i made it about three months ago but only knew two other people that had it and didn't want to post it around because i was a little uneasy about the concept of the website. now, i figured i'd really try it out. it just causes frustration, people get a high from posting pointless questions with a masked identity.
i've asked a couple dumb questions myself, but only to close friends that i always tell them about later. or a couple to that girl jean, which now i feel bad about. meh.

i haven't really been up to too much lately. i've been working my butt off with school work and running errands and going to work.
plus for the last few weeks, i've been at the gym almost daily. not to get built like those determined women...

ew. no. ha, but you know, just to stay healthy and fit. also, my diet has improved as well. but i'm not quite lame enough to get into detail about it.

well, i really thought i had a lot to blog about but i'm not thinking of words too proficiently.
the internet has taken too much out of me, i'm sick of it.
and talking to people on it.
it's confusing because i misjudge peoples emotions too easily, and it either makes me really happy, upset, or pissed.
if you talk to someone online, anyone, daily- conversations are not always going to be what you want them to be. emotions and emphasizing words or phrases are too difficult to be correctly conveyed.
which is why i'm so fucking sick of 'cyber-world' like facebook, msn, aim, even twitter sometimes.
it just gets to be annoying.
so. everyone. i'm proudly announcing that I am going to refrain from the internet (other than my studies) for the next few days. or, i'll try to at least ha.
so don't think about contacting me by putting slight pressure on the keys of your keyboard.
there's not much effort or thought involved.
you can come see me, or by using cell phones.
it don't maaaaatter.

well, to you twatting, facebooking, social-networking punks, ciao!

I will end this blog with this video. ha, first aaron posted it on my facebook saying it was me in 5 years (which i would hope i'd be less greasy looking, but i would totally perform a seductive yet classy number if i could.) and from there, i've grown to find it quite catchy.

ah, neat.





i want you most at your best.