Everything I know about breaking hearts, I learned from you.

Just forget me, it's that simple.

Um, this is the worst fucking week.

Now to me, this either means I'm going to have one kick ass birthday weekend, or....

it could be the start of my midlife crisis.

Hi hi hi hi!

Okay, so as you have all PROBABLY noticed...

I am getting into Townes Van Zandt!

I used to listen to some of his stuff when I was younger but the truth is, Melanie at that age did not see the beauty in things so easily. I seemed so...two dimensional.

anyways...he is a dark folk singer and he is SO beautiful.

Ah! sends shivers down my legs.

I tried downloading all these torrents from him but they just won't work and I'm sad.

Other news- I just got a tumblr! and I promise you trusty blogspot, I will not neglect you. I will still write my most personal things here.

That's just for funzies.

(I hope I mean all of that, sometimes I can go back on my words)

I also decided not to talk about my 'love' life, whatever of it exists.

because it's just not needed.

and I have so much other things to blog about, anyways!

Instead of doing so, whatever sorrows I have I will not elaborate now, I'd rather be a girl and devour toasted coconut ice cream on my bed while watching when harry met sally.

OKAY. goodbye.

whiskey by my dyin' bed, tell me where to lay my head

not with me is all she said, early in the morning.

Yessssss

what

do you dream up while I tongue you down?

this is a really awkward blog to type, but

In case anyone was falsely informed-

being in the 'talks' with me does not mean getting your dick sucked.

ew. sorry, if you have no idea what I am talking about then just disregard this and do not ask me what it's about. ha.

I have buried you, every place I've been.

You keep ending up, in my shaking hands.

xo

If

I had a fucking dime for every time someone in my family goes to jail.

way to ruin my day, guys.

Just watch the fireworks

So, usually...
my fourth of July...sucks!
because, I don't care to really outwardly make plans and celebrate it, it just always seemed dumb and I'd just do stupid things.
but THIS fourth of july was incredible! I woke up yesterday later than planned, I asked Desiree to come with me because I knew she'd love it, and we went to Beaufort. We went to Ryes house where we met up with patrick, michael, duffy, and kenneth. We separated from the boys for a bit to get 'girl' time, and so they could have man time. Desiree, Mariah, and I went to Luthers (this really good grille & bar downtown) and ate great food while listening to the acoustic performer. We walked around a bit and went to the Preserve to take a short swim at the pool and had deep conversations about boys and cliche things like that.
We head back to Mariahs house and meet up with duffy, patrick, and all of them once again and then Daniella, Jay, and Caroline come over too. This was like...my main squeeze before I left town. They are really awesome. Since the sands is like super close to mariahs house (and my old house) we just all decide to walk there because it was crawling with people to see the fireworks and the parking was awful, and we get to the beach area and almost immediately the fireworks set off. They literally go over our heads! I'm going to post pictures at the end of this blog. They were so close and huge and extravagant that it almost sounded like...bombs were going off. They were so fucking loud and vibrated the earth almost. It was so unreal, but absolutely mindblowing and beautiful. We all walk back and a few more people head over and we all have a drink or two (ha) to celebrate. Oh, and tyler and I sent each other like pictures of the fireworks we saw, I guess his was at some random wal-mart they were staying at in detroit and then he sends me ANOTHER picture, and I totally think it's going to be more fireworks but it's this UFO thing. And he told me it was a UFO and I got really creeped out because it looked real, but it turns out it was just a fan. ha, but his fourth of july seemed pretty interesting, he just needs to be back in SC rather than MI! Oh well, anyways, back to my wonderful night. We all watch Marble Hornets and I get scared out of my fucking MIND. there is this slender man in this youtube series and I researched it after and there really IS a slender man myth. This guy who has freakishly long legs and arms will randomly just show up in various photographs with children and he is wearing a tux. he'll be standing in the background. there are two really famous photographs that he is shown pretty clearly in around the 80's and the photographers were reported missing afterwards which is really ....odd. It scared me half to death. Daniella and I stayed up until 8:00 a.m. talking for hours and when I finally went to sleep I was so paranoid that a tall slender man was watching me. It's kind of like paranormal activity, even though I've never watched it, but it makes you so afraid of what goes on while your eyes are closed in bed. heres the link about the slender man myth, TELL me i'm not insane. Click to see the slender man!

Also, this kid Robby made me the most amazing video. Please view it here.