Say I am you

I just listened to The Weepies, haven't actually listened to all these songs in a while.
It's weird, hearing it brought back a rush of all these feelings and memories, mostly winter.
As each tune was running through my laptop, I felt a rush of cold weather. I remembered my bangs, and the always-almost-too-dark hair color I seemed to have. The long sleeved thick sweaters I wore that I had in many colors, that had something I could tie around my waist. And of course those winter boots I always wore, that I loved tucking my jeans into. I remember driving out of Spanish Wells, while it was dark out and going out to dinner.
I remember everything just seeming so cute. So perfect, almost.
I remember applying my thick coats of lip gloss that I'm sure was too much for my lips.
All the winter concerts, and things and flings going on, always something to do.
Sliding in my Weepies CD while driving to Beaufort, anxious and waiting to see my family. No stiff weirdness with my mother.
Then I remember all that homeschool nonsense, and watching stupid movies on HBO that I never wanted to watch. Just waiting til I could pick a friend or two up from the school and say hi to everyone. Waking up to texts from you and you and you.
I remember Catie, she and I were pretty close at the time.
I remembered you, of course.
Everything blended together.
I think I was happy, I think things felt more right then they have before. The warmest I felt in the coldest of winters.
Now I can't listen to this soundtrack anymore. It makes me realize that all of that is gone.
None of it will ever come back again.