but ya gotta yell something out you'd never tell nobody.

I said this before, but I deleted it.
I hate this blog. Such a mess, I don't like looking at it. Don't like the site.
It marks so many different awkward points of this one year.
that's now gone and shoveled in the ground.
that's all this blog really covers, just a pathetic little year which makes it sound like forever.
but this year seemed like it went by shorter than typing any one of these blog entries.
Today, is a shitty day.
Don't know why, I know a lot of triggers. I've just had no sleep, seen people leave, said goodbyes
and all in all just felt empty and melancholy while exasperated. today when taylor came over, we did a bit of nothing while a tad of everything. there were some points where I just felt great, laughed and things related to that. We had fun, and then she left and I slept again.
Now I feel a little better.
I think all I needed was a shitload of sleep that I've been way overdue for. I'm catching up.
August 31st comes around the corner and I should be more busy and getting things done, I'll have my car (most and certainly hopeful about it :/)
and get back in the kick of things.

This blog is a prime example on why I don't like my 'BlogSpot' anymore.
All it does it capture every bit of my annoyances and troubles.
What would happen if an almost stranger came upon this, hoping to get to know me, and thinks I'm the most stupid depressing girl. I'm not, I promise, if however that 'stranger' would be reading any of this. I wish I new some more strangers, may that would effect me greatly. Maybe it would damage me.

I don't know how to handle things from now on, a part of myself almost feels like it's ran away from me.

Well, out of the house I go.
I need to.
So, I must get ready and leave!