traveling, swallowing, dramamine

it's blows my mind how much people can change within a year.
when i moved here, i met people who i thought were so insanely interesting and sweet.
then, a little before the year is even over i come to find they are just dicks in disguise!
that, or they decide to change drastically.
maybe people start to hate you when you deny them of sexual acts. like, say, blowjobs. or sex.
well that covers just one of them at least. the others, i can't come to a conclusion of why.
and for those...no one feel targeted, please. this is aimed to more than a couple of people.

and i find it funny, while i was close to all these people...
people i hated then are coming to me now being as sweet as they can be wanting to be friends.
like, erin kaeding or other people. and i'm glad because they are really genuinely great.
right now, i'm honestly happy with all the people i'm close to. i know a lot of really fantastic people. best friends, and really close acquaintances. also, people i never expected to get to know.
but. they are now far away, so i have to see them when i can. which is fine with me : )

i feel awkward, just because i know that when people go to my blogs and read them they probably think i'm the most negative person to walk the planet. it's really the only place i put negativeness though, at least now anyways. i'm not so negative, i like being positive.
if you asked me now, i'd say i'm a pretty happy gal.

ive just, really recently tried not to let the same things bother me as they used to i guess.
everything is bound to turn bitter at some point, so why endure the taste any longer than you should?
i feel like a completely different and refreshed person.
someone better, someone more....desirable i hope?


i'm happy, i am.