Pants

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i feel completely lost right now.
everything is way out of place, everything just slipped through my fingers.
there was a point in time where i think i had everything that i could ever want now, but all of it was taken for granted. i didn't seem to care. i didn't seem to notice the importance of all those valuable things.
now, so many things are missing.
my extremely adored Ipod, my 2 inch longer hair which i long for now, my car which i never understood how lucky i was, and people.
now all that's left is being here, all the time. no way out, and every thing is either destroyed or stolen.


actually, i'm really into school work right now. since i'm taking astronomy i havent been more interested in the solar system and all these really interesting aspects. and psychology has really interested me as well, i love learning more and more. music theory to me is really easy, but it's still fun.
everything else is just doable.

derek and i are going job hunting together this week. this will be so great, haha.
something i can look forward to is...YES getting my braces off. super soon.

theres certain things that make me pretty uncomfortable to read, so i make it so i won't ever have to. i just want things to be easier right now, hopefully that is understandable.
i'm glad it sums up that fun is being had, and happiness is reached but learning certain branches or causes of that needs to be hidden.

now, i have some old school sherlock holmes mystery novels to indulge in (Dr. Watson is on to something...), and i can end this awkward blog.


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