Pants

this song is absolutely beautiful. agreed?



drinking alone in the morning, reached a new low eh?
these dumb weekend habits are getting to me, and with family history it's not such a good thing.
i hate guys, they always make me feel like shit and nothing and i get down there again.
when i think something is working with someone, theres always a reason i come up with of why it's not or why it cant.
i can't wait to scurry off to college and make a new life for myself. all this place is doing to me now is haunting me everywhere i go, everyone i see.
the thing is, hilton head isnt even bad at all. it's a nice place and by reading really really old blogs on this thing, it seemed to be my 'hiding' spot. from beaufort. i described it as this majestic place that i could just run to when things got bad in beaufort, my safety zone. the place where there were all these new people who made me so incredibly happy i couldnt see anything else to do but just move there.
but what i didn't expect, what i didn't think i'd find, is a lot of those people just turned on me and greatly disappointed me. they changed drastically. i know i probably changed myself but i never changed my morals or how i treated people.
i still cherish my great friends who are always there and who will always be there. and the new ones i've met and have grown to truly enjoy.
i'll take them everywhere always, no matter where i go.
but for the others i wish i could just burry in the ground and never think of any of them again.
start something new, refresh.
too bad things can't be that easy, i really wish they could.
i can't believe how different things were only just a year ago when i officially moved here.
i can't believe how much these hypocrites have changed so quickly. some of them are younger than me so i can figure it's because they are finding out who they are and it's bound to happen.


i can't wait for next weekend.
my mini getaway.