we're so far from where we were

i feel really sick to my stomach right now. i fell asleep for a little bit and woke up feeling terrible.
my dad got home at 12 tonight with a new girl around his arms, a new girl to introduce to me yet again.
maybe shes 27 or something like that. she looked like the singer of the pussycat dolls.
and she even came up to my room to try and bond with me and like, lay on my bed reading my cosmos?
it was weird.
today was pretty good, i went to wild wings with catie & my dad because he wanted to get chicken wings and wanted our company. so we went, and then we went to publix & catie left.
i got ready and stuff and then we went christmas shopping and just did other things from there.
it was sort of an all in all blah day, thats a good word to describe it.
i really need to start sleeping again at night.
it's effecting how i am during the day.

i hate not being sure about things, i just want to know that things are okay but i can't be sure.
for the most part i think things are okay, maybe i'm just paranoid.