-I am, the luckiest.

he's a brick & i'm drowning slowly,
off the coast & i'm headed nowhere.


I'd like to finish my story. I am close to being done, and trying to prove that I can get something like this completed for once.

I hope Gage had a good birthday today!

I was feeling really sick today, and I'm probably going to feel worse tomorrow. Imagine if I ended up going to Bonnaroo, with a high fever. Guess it would be a good opportunity to sweat it out.

haha, what is it about Facebook that screams : STRANGERS ON MELANIE'S FB IM LIST, INSTANT MESSAGE HER WITH PERSONAL SHIT ABOUT YOU! even though half the time i never met these people like once.
like right now.
Justin Deinema? what. i've never met him once, and he's like pouring out everything to me. it's SO wierd.

please go to this link: http://www.zachandlacie.wedsite.com/
and listen to the first song, it's so beautiful. [Sigur Ros] then open the little wedding book thing, & get to the page where it says "gallery" there are pictures of Lacie & Zach together, and even ME! bahaha, I can't wait to see her. She really is so amazing, and I can only dream of being like her.

Maybe I'm saying that cause I desperately hate being me, so much to the point sometimes where it's just screaming give up.
But I can't do that and contradict myself when I tell other people those are stupid thoughts. Multiple friends, actually.
I can't contradict.
So that is that.

I'm getting into Ben Folds again, he's peaceful and brings back memories.
I'm going to finish writing I guess, and hopefully read some more of my book.

Everyone going to Bonnaroo, you are all lucky sons-of-bitches.
:( But I hope you guys have a killer amount of fun & enjoyment in the next four days, wish I was there.


love always,
me