happy birthday darling. we love you very very very very very very very very much.

Yeah. I actually started crying watching this. Cats have gotten me so emotional lately. I feel stupid saying this, and you probably think I'm mostly idiotic.
Yesterday at my psychiatrist appointment, she was all, what's been up lately? and I'm in there with my dad as well.
I say, you know it's hard not having contact with my mom and it's been getting to me a lot.
(I start crying of course) and then I say...
It's just hard also to live here without a....CAT. and i start BAWLING. and she immediately hands me a tissue box.
I continue. "I just hate not having a cat around, its just hard for me you know? I don't have anyone to cuddle with while I'm watching tv or to lay by me after i have a bad dream. I've always had that growing up, and i can't have a cat now because of HIM!"
I point to my dad.
she says "now why can't she have a cat, Gus. WHY."
he's allergic. I say.
He feels bad and we decide it would be okay for me to get a kitten as long as I keep it in my room and take full care of him. I'm naming him pants, short for Rebecca.

I can't wait, it's all I've been thinking of. I just can't find any kittens anywhere. I doubt I will. I just really need one soon, I need something to cuddle with, since I don't get to do it often anyways...


ugh. but isn't that video precious?
I guess I'm going to see American Pie tomorrow, and then relay on friday.
then Madi wants me & dez to stay at her house after...

well. bye