and your eyes shine like Oppenheimer's as he talks about the boom!

hm, i'm glad to know that these blogs to get read, even by people i'd never expect!
I love having those 'i don't give a fuck about anythings days'
ha, that is the exact description of today.
Nothing bothered me, nothing excited me.
Every thought and feeling was numb to me.
It was the best thing ever. I went to target today and I heard a loud noise above my head and looked up to see an airplane really close to my head, it was skimming the sky so lose to my head. I think I could even make out all the imperfections of the plane and the writing on it. That close. If you know me, you know I have a weird thing about planes. They just creep me out and make me feel uncomfortable. But I was able to just look at it and think, I don't think I'd be that mad if it just happened to crash on my head. If it does, it does.
There was ups to this feeling today, but there was also downs.
I did something that I don't think I was ready to do just yet. I couldn't believe myself. Later I felt a cloud of, not regret but something along the lines of what the fuck happened. It was a mix of not caring about anything and being really pissed off. But it could be a good or bad thing, only time will tell.
I watched American Beauty with Derek today, and I was intrigued by the film. I can't believe it was my first time watching it, there are so many of these highly watched popular movies that I haven't seen. Yet I've seen so many and most of them some people haven't even heard of.
I am still disappointed that the majority of my friends don't even know what the movie 'Airplane' is. No one could not like Airplane. Ironic, my love for airplanes and everything. Yet I love watching it. I'll post the trailer of it at the bottom of this blog.
Things did get so fun today. Bridget Tony Cameron and I played soccer for about an hour on some random field, when it was kind of dark out. I wasn't that great but hey! I wasn't to shabby either. Then it was italian night at the Tiltons and I stayed over for dinner. We had to walk food over to neighbors that just moved in that her mom knew. Come to find that we know the boy that lives in the house, Anthony who is a year younger. haha, it was interesting. I'm getting crafty this week and making a duct tape dress. For this weekends events of course. It's going to be colorful and creative and I'll add a few other things from here to there.
Now I'm gonna finish part of the book I was writing forever ago that I never finished. I have to prove myself wrong and now stop in the middle, there's nothing worse than an unfinished story.

"This woman has got to be at a hospital."
"A hospital? What is it?"
"It's a big building with patients, but that's not important right now."

hahahah.