It's been a while

I'm sorry guys. I've been more active on tumblr and honestly forgot about my blogspot.

Kind of contradicting what I said before.

That I'd keep up with this, and all.

Uh....what's new with me. Things are new. A lot of things are new actually.

First, lets see what I am MOST excited about! Concerts!

I am going to see Circa Survive in 7 days. They will be playing

at the music farm, which is insanely close to me. I already have my ticket, not missing this amazing opportunity.

Next, I will be seeing Andy Hull & Kevin Devine in December.

DSHGOIGHD! God, can't fucking wait for that. I haven't s

een Andy Hull live since I saw Manchester & Brand New like 4 or 5 years ago. And I took that show for granted. Yeah, weird how you can take shows for granted.

To be honest, I'm not really sure who reads this anymore. Everyone I follow stopped blogging, too. Except for Kristen. I still love your blogs, cutie!

I don't care though. I can always turn here for a personal little journal of some sort. Tumblr is kind of like this but it's more appropriate to actually blog here.

Only a semester of USCB and I am out of here. For good. I mean it, I don't like it here.

I like aspects of it, like my friends/boyfriend,

having decent weather and the beach.

But, I know I don't belong here. I guess when you're younger you belong wherever your family is, and then when you grow up everything changes. Even yourself.

I want to be somewhere fast paced and calm at the same time. I want to be somewhere with a good music scene and fun people.

I know exactly where I am going, too.

Where, you ask? don't worry about it.

this weekend was nice having bridget here and spending everyday together. I also got to take midnight walks with my lovely neighbor, Matthew, and we went to Fancy Q the next day.

Charleston is treating them well.

I visited Charleston the other weekend and had a lot of fun myself. mmmm.

A while back I saw Yeasayer in Savannah, they played with Washed out. It was one of the best live performances I have seen besides Metric. Oh good

ness, I felt as if I was in a dream. Definitely made me much more of a yeasayer fan...

Speaking of dreams, lately I have been wishing there was some switch to cut them off for the night. They've been to painful for me, dreams I could handle before but can't now. I don't know what's wrong with me.

Other than that....

everything is beautiful.

You were my Candy.

Day 1 - July 2002

It was Sunday and I was at the therapist when my dad found out my brother Michael was in the hospital and he got in a car accident. We rushed to the hospital. A few days later my mom called the cops on my dad. Well, my mom was just thinking about herself. But, we are hiding at Al's house and Joe's house. We are at Al's right now, we were just swimming and Alex got very mean and started to tease me! What else will go wrong!

It's my birthday and Michael talked! In spanish and in English. This is great!

Day two

Morning right now of all of our nightmare! I'm supposed to have my birthday party today at moms, but if I go back to Beaufort my dad will get arrested. I wanted my party so bad! I wish things would turn out better. What scares me is....It's not over yet.

4:50 p.m. -

At about 3:30 I called Mariah. She asked me where I was. I wasn't supposed to tell her but I told her that I would tell her all the details later. I'm allowed to tell Ashley, my friend, because her parents know about this whole thing so Ashley knows. This is so serious that it might go in the news paper! All my dad is doing is jut trying to see his son Michael. There should be no harm.

10:55 p.m. -

We just got back from the skating rink, when we decided NOT to rent a movie because it's too late. Everyone wants to go to sleep. I don't. So Alex, me, dad and Angela are going to watch a movie on TV but I don't like watching movies on satellite because the movies that are good are like almost over. But who knows, we could get lucky and get a movie from the beginning. I can't write right now because we're gonna watch something. I'll write later.

Day three-

We are on our way to Kennys house for his birthday party. I haven't had mine yet. It's going to be a 3 hour drive down to his house. Today or yesterday was supposed to be my party but I can't have it at all because my mother called the cops on my dad! This really sucks. I got an e-mail from my mom and my pen-pal. I'm not allowed to write them back because my mom might find out where we are and trace us down. I really wish I could at least write my pen pal back.

July 23-

Last night my dad was on the phone. When he got off, he told us that the cops tried to arrest Hulio because they thought he was my dad. Hulio is my brother Michaels step father! We're afraid that the cops might find us!

July 26-

I'm at school right now because if my dad didn't bring me home yesterday he would have been arrested. We will have to go to court on Tuesday though. It's been stressful for me. It's also my first day of 5th grade! I already missed the first week so I have to meet new people. I just wish someone could understand the things that happened to me..

August 7-

Sorry I haven't written in a long time. My mom has already been to court. She didn't tell me anything! I wish she would tell me what's going on, I'm confused! She told me my dad is brainwashing me and my dad is saying she is brainwashing me. Who do I believe? I don't know.

August 15-

The judge is trying to figure out who we are going to live with. My brother is dying to know. We all are. Things are so confusing. I feel like I don't know that much. My dad is telling me more than my mom is, I'm about to die here!

November 11-

I have been to a lot of therapists. They say something is wrong with me. I think I have to wait for my mom to take me to Dr. Saylor. Sometimes I can't wait anymore, the answer is waiting somewhere.

The rest of the pages have been torn out.

Everything I know about breaking hearts, I learned from you.

Just forget me, it's that simple.

Um, this is the worst fucking week.

Now to me, this either means I'm going to have one kick ass birthday weekend, or....

it could be the start of my midlife crisis.

Hi hi hi hi!

Okay, so as you have all PROBABLY noticed...

I am getting into Townes Van Zandt!

I used to listen to some of his stuff when I was younger but the truth is, Melanie at that age did not see the beauty in things so easily. I seemed so...two dimensional.

anyways...he is a dark folk singer and he is SO beautiful.

Ah! sends shivers down my legs.

I tried downloading all these torrents from him but they just won't work and I'm sad.

Other news- I just got a tumblr! and I promise you trusty blogspot, I will not neglect you. I will still write my most personal things here.

That's just for funzies.

(I hope I mean all of that, sometimes I can go back on my words)

I also decided not to talk about my 'love' life, whatever of it exists.

because it's just not needed.

and I have so much other things to blog about, anyways!

Instead of doing so, whatever sorrows I have I will not elaborate now, I'd rather be a girl and devour toasted coconut ice cream on my bed while watching when harry met sally.

OKAY. goodbye.

whiskey by my dyin' bed, tell me where to lay my head

not with me is all she said, early in the morning.

Yessssss