she's gone across the border man, & you're never gonna see her again.

well this is the last time i'm putting my words out about this. so here goes nothing.
all I ever did was want to make you happy, everything I did was because I cared about you.
I didn't think I ever did anything to make you question me. I'm not perfect, but I did everything I could to make you feel okay. I would have never done anything to upset you or lie to you. Anything of the sort. And now everythings ruined, I dont know if I can go back again. I'm afraid that this will keep happening, and I hate feeling hurt like this just because I really do care about you and I guess that's something you aren't ready to accept. I know you've been though a lot of shit and I know it probably caused this, but would it kill you to believe that maybe I'm different? I mean, I was willing to let you do whatever you had to do to get though...whatever it is you had to get through. but now? it's ending up damaging me, when i didn't think it would. I dont even know what to do at this point, I dont know if you want me to move on or what, but I can't right now. I can't see myself getting into anyone else now, or at least anytime soon.
I'll probably end up deleting this blog just because i regret letting you read it.
I'm not to great with words anyways.