Pants

My last blog doesn't count as a 'blog' cause it's just Brand New lyrics.
Limousine is a wonderful song from "The Devil and God are Raging Inside Me", check it out if you haven't done so. Although it's...old. I like daisy alright, just not my favorite album. Very different.

So, today I realized that my 70 something year old yoga instructor might have a weird thing for me.
(I know, why would a man that age teach yoga? Well, he only does once a week, the rest of the days women teach it and it's usually better. But today, Mondays, Ray does. The old man.)
I find it REALLY creepy. Bridget, Abby, and I took his class tonight. There were a few other people in there as well. Bridget has always joked around like, you are Rays teachers pet, and stupid things like that but I never really took it seriously & laughed it off. But tonight, while I was sitting indian style on my mat, with my palms together placed by my chest, eyes closed and relaxed, I opened them to see him staring at my chest and licking the outer layer of his nasty lips.
At first, I was just like, well, whatever thats probably nothing. But then he kept saying "Yes Mel, beautiful pose. Beautiful." And Bridget and Abby just kind of stared and giggled a little bit. AND when I was in my downward dog pose, (which you are on your hands and the tips of your toes with your tailbone in the air, making an upside down V shape with your body) he traced my legs with his fingertips from my ankles up to my butt, and pulled it up towards the sky more. and then I collapsed and gave him a funny look.
I couldn't make eye contact with him for the rest of that class, feeling awkward and invaded.
Then he pulled me aside at the end saying "your flexibility and stamina is fantastic, I really think you should look into instructing your own class one day Mel" and put his HAND on my leg moving to my inner thigh. I quickly jumped up to Bridget and Abby and said, Lets go. Now.
Abby kept joking about it to the bathroom and I couldn't find it funny this time, Bridget could tell how bothered I was so we both kept telling her to stop.
I don't think I want to go to yoga on Monday nights anymore.
I am so mortified.

I'm sick of boys.
Now I'm really sick of old men.
I'm sick of that whole gender.
When they aren't emotionally hurting you, they are molesting you with their eyes.

Ugh.
I am going to watch an episode of sex and the city and call it a night. I have a few things to do in the morning. I'll finish this up, with a survey.

Layer One - Stats...
-Name: Melanie
-- Birth date: July 18th 1992
-- Birthplace: Roanoke, VA
-- Current Location: hilton head. ha.
-- Eye Color: blue
-- Hair Color: brown
-- Height: 5'4... I think? I lack the nice pair of long legs you hear about in books. :(
-- Righty or Lefty: righty!
-- Zodiac Sign: cancer.

Layer Two - Describe...
-- Your heritage: russian, cuban, and just recently found out i'm 25% lebanese.
-- The shoes you wore today: Some silver flats.
-- Your weakness: boys with charming words and musical prodigies.
-- Your fears: vomiting, and the unknown. even though there is no point.
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: I can't ever seem to achieve them.
-- Your favorite way to wake up: looking over at my phone to see an unread text message enclosed with a clever way to tell me good morning. or just good morning all on it's own. love it.

Layer Three - Tell..
-- Your most overused phrase on MSN: I don't know.
-- Your thoughts first waking up: why the fuck did I dream about those people?
-- Your best physical feature: um. this is awkward. I have gotten my eyes, and I have gotten my lips before. but in my opinion, I'm not too sure.
-- Your most missed memory: I certainly don't have just one, but there are a couple in mind which i will never say or type aloud. they are for me to enjoy only :)

Layer Four - You prefer...
-- Pepsi or Coke: coke, but actually pepsi sometimes.
-- McDonald's or Burger King: ew. I'm not big on fast food anymore.
-- Single or group dates: depending on who it's with.
-- Adidas or Nike: no.
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton?
-- Chocolate or vanilla: absolutely vanilla, absolutely.
-- Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino.

Layer Five - Do you...?
-- smoke: negative.
-- Cuss: cunt.
-- Sing well: ...in the shower? : ) ha, i'm not bad. I just choose not to sing in front of people I'm not comfortable around.
-- Take a shower everyday: Mhm.
-- Have a crush(es): ha, yes.
-- Do you think you've been in love: hmm, definitely.
-- Want to go to college: yes sir. very close to it!
-- Like high school: eh.
-- Want to get married: hell yeah.
-- Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: oh, like how they teach you on mavis beacon or whatever. no. no, i don't.
-- Believe in yourself: this is gay.
-- Get motion sickness: yeah, somewhat.
-- Think you're attractive: I'M A SEXY BEAAAAAAST. haha, i have certain days where i'm really low on myself, and days where i'm more confident.
-- Think you're a health freak: not a health freak, but I've been more into my health lately.
-- Get along with your parents: ultimately, yes. Not long ago, I was a monster to them..
-- Like thunderstorms: i think they are peaceful. but sometimes when they are too harsh, I get in "find-the-closest-blanket-and-hide-under-it" mode.
-- Play an instrument: mhm, piano. I was going through some old piano books I had before and I can read notes fairly well, and not the easy childrens shit either.

Layer Six - In the past, did/have you...
-- Drank alcohol: Yes.
-- Smoke(d): I have. I don't.
-- Done a drug: mhm.
-- Have Sex: mhm.. i'm not a nympho though. it was really only one person, kind of. this survey is too personal, i don't like it.
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no
-- Eaten sushi: my weakness!
-- Been on stage: yes.
-- Gone skating: ice skating, is the best kind of skating.
-- Made homemade cookies: only the best.
-- Gone skinny dipping: definitely.
-- Dyed your hair: yeah, i'm done with dying hair though.
-- Stolen anything: jeez.

Layer Seven - The future...
-- Age you hope to be married: anytime from tomorrow to my dying breath. as long as i'm head over heels for someone and vice versa. age don't matter.
-- Numbers and Names of Children: ideal number of children is 2. i'd be happy with one though, and three or more if that's what me and whoever wanted. and as far as names, I really like Zoe, and I like blythe. but whatever my sexy man wants. : )
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: somewhere cute. with cute music. and cute friends.
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: I used to want to be in massage therapy, but now i'm interested in the psychiatric field. or fashion design. wow, way different choices.
-- What country would you most like to visit: I'd love to go around Europe! I think Greece would be amazing as well. Actually, I just want to leave the country. I'm applying for a passport tomorrow, we are planning a cruise in April. And apparently I don't have one of those, so I'm not able to leave the country. To me, nowhere exists until I visit it myself, stand on it's ground. I can't base my thoughts on a place just by other peoples words and pictures. It just seems like a story tale. So when I see these places for myself, they will exist more to me.

Layer eight - Opposite sex
-- Best eye color? brown, blue, green. doesn't matter.
-- Best hair color? brown.
-- Short or long hair?: short or long, but preferably long.
-- Best height: taller than me, but not TOO tall. enough to where I can still easily kiss him. : )
-- Best weight: comfortable.
-- Best articles of clothing: whatever is fine
-- Best first date location: i don't care.
-- Best first kiss location: the first kiss itself is enough to be fond of.

Layer nine - Number of...
-- people I could trust with my life: 4
-- CDs that I own: too many to count. mostly mixes.
-- piercing: ears.
-- Number of tattoos: zip.
-- times my name has been in the newspaper?: um.
-- scars on my body: three or four.
-- things in my past that I regret: as much as i'd like to regret things, nothing can be perfect. imperfection is beauty.