So upset.

My parents really get to me sometimes.
My dad is fucking bipolar, one day he will say that what i want to do is fine. then the next, he decides to be a dick and say, no! i change my mind, because now i don't trust you that late at night in a different state.
when really, nothing bad would have happened. i'm old enough to take care of myself, i'm not 13 or 14 years old anymore. i'm going to be 17 super soon, and then not long after i'll be on my own.
tonight, he told me "oh well, i just found out i'm going out of town so i'll let you buy your tickets as soon as i know your mother can take you."
so as soon as she picks up he is like "MELANIE WANTS TO GO TO A CONCERT AND NO GIRLS WILL BE THERE AND IT'S GOING TO BE LATE AND I DONT LIKE THIS. oh yeah could she stay with you that weekend?"
So of course my mother freaks out and says no, and my dad starts randomly YELLING at me saying, NO SEE I KNEW THIS WASNT A GOOD IDEA, FORGET IT.
so, i say, why would you even begin to listen to parental advice from her when she abandoned me all the time when i was really little for some sketch black guy that is a child molester and basically cheats any chance he gets. you abandon me for that, when i really couldnt have taken care of myself then. i havent talked to her in weeks, she lied to me about getting back with him again, and now she tries to act like she has all this say in my life?
this may be harsh, but fuck you mom. you are the reason i don't go to public school right now due to deeper reasons.
you are the reason, that i don't get along with you now.
you are the reason, that i don't fall for the good guys.
you are the reason, that i could never go home after school in junior high because you had more important things to do with him,
you are the reason, that i was always afraid of going home
you are the reason, i never felt like i even HAD a home then,
and now you are the reason, that i can't go to HoH.
good job, you really are some mother.
This is the one thing that I have been looking foward to for a while, and I can't even go anymore because of you guys.
everything is ruined now.
thanks.
now back to the rest of what will now be one of the shittiest weeks yet.