your mouth is open wide, the lover is inside.

okay..
well i haven't blogged in a while.
honestly nothing is really different, nothing has really changed.
my birthday was fun. i'm sixteen, but i don't feel different.
the party consisted of going putt-putting, haha.
everyone came back to my dads house for a pool party thing.
then garrett and gage left and it was me, desiree, bridget, anna, and terry. i had to take terry home before he could eat pizza & cake with us. lame.
but overall it was a fun birthday.
other than that, i'm taking each day at a time. i'm not making any plans for anything.
for the rest of the summer i just want to go with the flow, and do things in the moment. no planning ahead. actually, that was a great conversation me and bridget had today. its like, these are the years to be completely free, not be obsessed over planning out your childhood, or being work-obsessed. i guess you should be school obsessed, but that's something that i'll never be. when we're adults we dont have an excuse to be carefree. theres going to be that bill we need to pay, taking care of our familys, & not being taken care of so contently and precise as we are now. the future really does freak me out. motion city soundtrack speaks the honest fucking truth. every year that goes by just scares me more and more. it seems like yesterday, i was counting down the minutes til i turned 10 years old. i remember, counting down the last 10 minutes haha. it seems like yesterday, because thinking "yay, i'm going to be a two digit number" that was six years ago. it felt like 6 days ago. im going to be 22 6 years from now, saying "i remember turning 16 like yesterday." isnt that weird? well if today is yesterday then i'm not ready for tomorrow to come yet.
if you could make sense of that, then thank you. because explaining it just seems like too much work at this point.
well. to all of you reading, i hope i know you tomorrow.