Jack & Jill left the Golden State

Well, this is my first blog. I don't even know why I'm making one of these, I'll probably never actually spend a lot of my time blogging.
Hmm.
So I guess I'll put down a few things that have been on my mind, fill in somethings.
Well things are pretty good, I guess. One thing in particular controlling it all.
It can be good, and sometimes it can turn bad.
But all you can really do it hope for the best I guess. Anyways. I'm in Hilton Head right now, and I really really like it here. Like, I love Beaufort too, and my amazing friends there. But I do have friends in Hilton Head too, that are really fun to hang out with. Its hard to be in two places at once, is what I'm trying to say. My dad keeps pressuring me to move in with him, but I'm not sure if I'm ready to completely leave where i lived most of my life. It's just all so hard to figure out.
& school is really annoying, and I don't know why but sometimes I feel like I'm majorly slacking. Which isn't great. But that's something that I will really work on next year, just being an overall better student.

A couple weeks ago, I was...honestly? Just confused about who my friends were. The person that has been there for me most of my life, the one who was my best friend most of my life did something really hurtful that I will never forget. Then new people came into my life, introducing different lifestyles. Looking back on the past two years, I went through the WILDEST phases, & changes! It's so crazy, the friends that change, the way I look & act, the way I dressed. The only thing(s) that really didn't change was the music, I will always love old 90's music from when I was really little. I will always love the songs I listened too in middle school. I will always love bands like Blink 182, and Jimmy Eat World because that is the root of the bands i listen to now! It just goes to show, I guess. How much I really have....changed. I honestly didn't see it coming. Life is just flying by me so fast. I'm just going through life, LOOKING for mistakes to learn from, or watching my friends fall in love, when I have never experienced anything such. I'm not who I was before, & I'm sure I'm not who I'm going to be a couple years from now, or when I'm an adult and I'm finally not afraid to admit that. I'll say it again, haha, I don't know who i am. but its okay. And wow. I just realized how I'm jumping from subject to subject in this blog. I guess it's just a way of getting everything out?

I don't know. Overall. I just want to find out where I'm going and gradually grow up, and find people that really care about me. Just like I care about them. I'm not afraid to put my friends and family before me, or before a boyfriend or whatever. I guess in time, it will all just come to me.