'My tongue will taste of gin and malicious intent
bring you back to the bar, get you out of the cold
a sober straight face gets you out of your clothes.
& they're scared, that we know all the crimes they'll commit
who they'll kiss before they get home.
I will lie awake & lie for fun and fake the way I hold you,
let you fall for every empty word I say.'

so go and riddle me over.

joy.

today was the longest of days.
i've been bitter, i've been tired, and all these terrible feelings.
and it wasn't until 3 or 4ish that I knew why.
this sucks.

because,
i even turned down movie night with bridget. i feel like a complete monster right now!
but, later davis and i went to la hacienda.
i realized that guy everyone talks about 'yates' was sitting two booths behind us.
davis knew who he was right away just because of his distinct voice. God! I had to hear this kid blabber about politics for an hour using really cheesy words with great annoyance.
and then i was trying to look over to see what he looked like, almost peeking behind my booth, and stumbled out like the idiot i am.
ha, it was quite humorous.

although this day has basically been, awful, my night was pretty good.
i got to video chat too, i have always loved that


at work, i saw a man who strangely resembled steve martin (i guess it's not hard to do if you have the right hair and nose), and i made a note to never tell someone they looked like steve martin again.

it's frustrating when people have tried to get with you in the past, then say awful things about you afterwards, and then get persistent about getting with you again.
it's not going to happen.
sorry.
i may be available but i am also very, very selective. too selective, i may add.
this may or may not be a problem. i'm not sure anymore.

it makes me a little sad when i see people slowly start to change. i favor people the most when they are different from everyone else and feel no need to conform to the lifestyles around them.
this is to no one in particular- it's honestly about a couple people i can name on the top of my head right now.

my most listened to song right now is riddle in londontown by state radio.
it's from their older album us against the crown, but i forgot how absolutely beautiful it is. i wish i could remember if they played it when i saw them live or not.
can't remember for the life of me.

i really really hope this is a good month. and march. and april.
i said in my last blog that it was going to be, but i honestly never really know.
i make all these plans, but will i do them?
i want to. i have to.
seeing as my dad will be out of the....country the majority of the month, it's a good possibility.

bah. it's 12:57. meaning it's a whole new day and i can leave yesterday behind me.
when i wake up, i can only hope the day is nothing but beautiful.

ouuuuuuuuuuuch!
pants just totally attacked the shit out of me, ha.
i thought we were just playing around and then she just went nuts.
:(


I love pants and all, but, my arm really hurts right now so I'm really close to just selling her or something, ha.


i've never been a huge 'superbowl' fan, so bridget & i attended some stupid little superbowl get together, and basically ate their chips & dip and left.
i turned on the puppy bowl on her tv and we concluded that was way better.
seemed as if everyone else smoked a 'super' bowl for the 'superbowl'!

I love how I'm putting quotient marks over superbowl.

meh, it's not such a great night and all i want is to watch sex & the city except that can't happen.
but.
Dinner with Davis tomorrow, yipee!




Cheers to an exciting next few months, aye?

circa survive in march?

oh, a girl can hope.

put on a pretty face, you'll always win.

here I am, it's 3 a.m. yet again.
of course, I'm able to sleep. I know I'm tired enough.
let's just say, if my body ran half as much as my mind did, i'd be in great shape.
I spend too much time worrying about things I can't control.
I should cut that out.

Minus the bears Into The Mirror is pretty good.
I love how late I am to everything.
but I don't see it as a race.

twitter is dumb. depending on who you have on your list, I guess.
people that say awful things and get way out of line for nothing at all,
they are either just completely over-dramatic or...
a little insecure. or both. either way, i'm not one to pick at them. I just need to really watch what I say on twitter.

I watched 'Guess who's coming to dinner' today, with Katharine Hepburn ha. So cute, I love old movies.

well, i wasn't even planning on writing a blog tonight. didn't want to. I just figured it would be a quick cure for my slight insomnia.
I sure hope it was.
I need to wake up early to shower and catch a movie with some friends at noon!

-always

i'm in love with the world, through the eyes of a boy


gonna start sleeping with a black light over my bed.

yeah, gonna do it.

cheerio mates.

"suck on my fingertips until you kill all my prints, so my boyfriend has no clue of how much i've been touching you."

March 16th will be amazing, end of the brace-face era!
I'm so used to how I look now, I don't know how I'll get used to this.
But it will be new, and I can't be more excited.

Today was another Beaufort day, seeing as it was an appointment day.
I saw a couple friends & then an old acquaintance of mine, Lucas, took me to lunch.
Apparently he saw me driving or something & sent me a text. I didn't even have his number anymore so it was weird, I had no idea who it was at first.
But overall, it was alright. We talked about what has been going on in our lives, and sadly I saw how he's done nothing at all with his life except rot in a small shared smoked out apartment with his old high school drop out friends, playing Marble Blast Ultra on Xbox live daily, as well as the other x box games the boy species play. It's just so weird.
and the first thing he could say to me after all this time was, "wow. you've grown."
Other than all of that, it was enjoyable.

I am getting rather frustrated with my laptop these days. It keeps overheating, and I don't even do that much on it.
I just started playing tetris and after five minutes, it keeps freezing and making that loud sound computers make when it sounds like they are breathing really heavily, and they are so warm.
I wonder if Macs do this....

probably not. But I will not conform!
I'm trying to stay old school as long as possible, even though any sorts of laptops arent old school, technology is moving too rapidly. What will be after the Mac, Itouch, I....pad? What is next? IRobot? ...wait, that's a movie.
but seriously. When my sisters were my age, they talked to their friends more on the phone then on these stupid new things now. I won't even go into this, I'll rant forever. Nobody wants that haha.

um, i'm tired. adios!