hm

Being John Malkovich.
....it's a pretty good movie.


blogging seems to be something I don't do anymore.
I have 8 unpublished blogs within the last 2 or 3 weeks, good ones, but unfinished.
I always think I'll finish them at some point, but always just say....fuck it! and I start on a new one.
then that new one, becomes a replica of my old one, unfinished and mediocre.

I'd post them all for the beauty of their imperfections, but I'm not because I'd say they were too personal.

I've been working extra at abercrombie lately, they are raping me with shifts.
I feel like someone else when I work there, someone who abides by the A&F dress code, one who will chat about Gossip Girl with the blonde bimbo 23 year old managers. One, who is not me at all. But... do I care? No. I have been making acceptable money, and this isn't a job I'll be keeping for years to come. For whatever job that might be, it will be me. Somehow.
Or, maybe I'll end up at a cubicle and hate my life. And get pissed when someone takes my stapler. Or moves me to another cubicle. Or doesn't give me any of the fucking cake.


I never thought I'd still be texting this person from the cruise. From Atlanta, and he is a jew.
But.... there is nothing wrong with that.
I have to wake up early tomorrow to spend the morning making one epic breakfast with my friends.

I am really starting to enjoy cooking.
I know I have made plenty cooking errors in my time, but, everyone makes mistakes.
and I've definitely fixed those errors, I am one determined girl to be the best cook she can be : )

That was gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

Oh well! night you all, have the sweetest of dreams that your little heads can imagine.
xoxo

lovin's for fools

crazy how I feel, living without you
inside this house that we built
seems like the window's finally open letting the memories out
go on and love her
love her forever
I will not tell her I told you to
you'll never know dear, how much I love you.
lovin's for fools

maybe you'll find me walking in the garden
looking for something pure
roots that are growing deeper and deeper,
maybe you'll pull them too

well go on and leave here, leave here forever
no one can make you do what you do
you'll never know dear how much I love you
lovin's for fools, lovin's for fools.

Nobody sits like this rock sits. You rock, rock. The rock just sits and is. You show us how to just sit here and that's what we need.

Yes.

420 is the most idiotic made up holiday there is.

Oh, sister.

Time is an ocean, but it ends at the shore.

So. I can't really explain how much fun I had this week, just because....I honestly can't ha.
I can still feel the motion of the boat when I'm just sitting here.
I didn't realize how many amazing people are out there, I met really wonderful people.
Also, I couldn't help but to not think about home at all while I was gone, I felt completely renewed.
I uploaded some pictures onto my facebook of the trip too, which are pretty swell in my opinion.

I don't even want to write anymore.
I miss everyone already, but I'm still euphoric.
Um... yeah. well,

That's all I am going to type out now.